Bullshizzle.

I wonder if there's a place where on one side it's already 2010 and on the other it's still 2009. If you stood at this place, you would technically be standing in two different years. Is that a stupid thought?

I personally find this whole New Year's thing anti-climatic. I will wake up tomorrow and it'll look like any other day. I'll still write "2009" on my papers accidentally for a good month or so. I'll still have to deal with the same things for a good 3/4 of 2010.

Man. It feels like yesterday I wrote an entry with a resolution on it. It didn't happen. I could care less at this point. I can't wrap my head around it so I'm just really not gonna let it bother me ever again.

"So what about this year?!"

Oh, here's an easy one. Get into college. WOO! Simple enough right? Mr. Unedited College Essay begs to differ.

I just realized this little identity mess (that's probably over-exaggerating) I'm in is gonna get in the way of my applying. WAY TO START OFF THE NEW YEAR! I have to fill out my financial aid stuff ASAP, but I can't until all my ID and all that crap says the name I've been using since I was like 8.

Today has been a horrible day. I don't know. It probably sounds like nothing compared to your big boy problems right?

-Allan

Lemons

I went to the DMV today. Stood in line for a good hour. Took that written test. Passed with 4 wrong. Stood at the counter waiting for something to happen. Lady tells me that the name on my social security card does not match the one on my passport so I can't get anything until that's all fixed. Hooray. This sucks so much because the name on my passport isn't actually even the name that I use so I'll just have to change EVERYTHING now. I don't know what the hell my parents did when I first got to the US, but there are about 3-4 different names floating out there on various documents that all are suppose to be me.

This needs to be fixed soon because I'll have to apply to college very soon and it would be so not awesome if something happened because none of the names match up.

All of that totally killed the excitement of passing in one go. The kid in front of me had like 12 wrong. I JUST WANNA DRIVE BEFORE JANUARY 23RD!!!

So yea, I basically have a permit. Haha. NOW ONTO THE DRIVING EVENTUALLY!

-Allan

St. Broadrick

Did you know that one Anthony Green and one Matt Embree came together last night in Los Angeles during a Good Old War show and played an acoustic version of "Skullflower" by The Sound of Animals Fighting? I'm going to assume that you, the reader, have no clue what TSOAF is so that's not important news.

I got the driving handbook of doom today! I've neglected to finish reading it still, but I have to! Why?! BECAUSE I APPARENTLY WILL BE TAKING THE WRITTEN TEST TOMORROW! Way to just spring things on me parents. I bet you a pony I'll fail it since I've become the worst test taker ever.

Oh man. I will get to drive eventually.

I've actually had another really, really long talk with someone on Omegle. That website is gonna get me killed.

-Allan

Bacon smacon

Anyone else find the title of my blog ridiculously stupid and thirteen-year-old-ish?

I do.

But me and the Photoshop aren't speaking so meh.

I got Adobe Premiere Pro CS3! Now I just need something to edit. I have weird hobbies. Like editing videos just for the hell of editing videos! I like learning how to use things like Photoshop and Premiere. Makes me feel useful and tech savvy.

Says the tech guy who's actually expected to understand how computers work. I really don't. I just know how to crack 'em open and occasionally know what to take out and fix.

Boohoohoo.

-Allan

Heart of chocolate

I just spent over an hour talking to the same person on Omegle. Her name was like Alyssa or something. She lived in Maine, was 16 and had absolutely no interest in boys (if you know what I mean). Of course, this information was all volunteered by her. She only knows I live in California and that I am a guy from all my stupid comments. We talked about ponies and kittens for a good 90% of that conversation. Somewhere in there was a bit of rape and murder and hardcore music. It was fun. Dare I say the most perfect Omegle conversation ever? They should model conversations after the one we just had. It didn't start with "asl?" and the only mention of hand jobs were by me during really bad jokes. If only the interbot was all this awesome.

I also want a trophy because I'm sure we broke some kind of record for longest, non-sex related, awesome conversation. YEA!

Other than that, life is still just as boring and stuck in my room as can be.

-Allan

Gota de suerte

I wanna not be sitting in front of the computer doing nothing. If I could only turn that into something productive.

There's still half of a book I spent $14 on that I haven't finished reading. An entire college essay I should probably write. One I need to revise ASAP. And just a plethora of other things I wanna get started on.

But it will never happen! WE ALL KNOW ME WELL ENOUGH AND I NEVER GET ANYTHING DONE! Poop.

I know. Two posts in one day? Exciting! If more people read this and I were more famous, some possible comments could look like this:

"OMG! ANOTHER POST?! IS IT MY BIRTHDAY?!"

"lulz"

"fagget"

"It really worked for me! BUY VIAGRA NOW!! www.notreallyviagra.com"

"Do you like regular Pringles?!"

"you know what you need a job and maybe a girlfriend then you wouldn't be sitting on your fatass eating all day and talking to the internet like someone cares fuckyoufuckyoufuckyouballsballsballsballs"

I personally love that last one. All my comments should look like that. LOOK LIKE IT!

I kinda wish I had a camera because there are things I wanna take pictures of. Hooray.

-Allan

A Badge

MY PACKAGE CAME! HOORAY! And immediately I am waiting for another. Stupid gift cards and their ability to let me shop online. =/

My dad just has the worst opinions ever. He says things and you're just like "Wow...is that what you really think?" Scratch the first sentence. The only issue I have with his opinions is that he is way too vocal about it. Yes, it is good to express your opinions, but with anything it gets boring after the first time. He'll find a way to slip politics into just about everything! I DON'T CARE ABOUT HOW THEM LIBERALS ARE KILLING US! I don't like politics either. If you hate it so much, move down South. Then you'll never have to deal with our pseudo-hippie bullshit ever again.

What?

I have this crazy paper cut on mah fingah. As with most cuts I get, I can't tell you where exactly it came from. All I know was that I neglected to put a band-aid on it and it looks gnarly.

WHOO!!

-Allan

French Texas

HOLYSNAPS! Wristcutters: A Love Story is probably one of the best movies I have ever seen!!! I love it! It somehow takes such a super depressing act and turns it into an amazing movie that is in no way depressing. GO WATCH IT! GO WATCH IT! GO WATCH IT!!!

I got a bit too excited there. It is a good movie though. The guy from Almost Famous is in it. Tom Waits is in it. They play a few songs by Joy Division. WHAT'S THERE NOT TO LOVE?!

But alas, I am stuck at home in the end. I'm kinda tempted to just take public transportation all the out to the city so I can spend the rest of my "I saved up all of this money for one thing, but I've decided to waste it on all this other thing" money. It's kinda late ish though. I probably won't make it home before dark and I'm not motivated to leave the house. I'm still recovering from being 98% dead so I shouldn't risk it.

I have a Skype account, but I never use it. I'm not cool enough I guess.

-Allan

Postcards from Italy

Santa was just using Rudolph for his body.

I've been terribly sick for the past few days. It could've been Swine flu. I don't know. I didn't sleep much. I didn't eat much. I could barely stand up. It was horrible. I couldn't even hold up a guitar (having a very heavy Les Paul didn't help) so I basically just laid in bed coughing up various internal organs.

I've developed a phobia of metal doorknobs. It's really sad and scary.

-Allan

Kid

Dear ramen noodles,

You are tasty.
Insert a line about Brittany Murphy.
So I can say two more years until twenty.
Check it.

-Allan

Chutes

I will go out of my way and say that I may have just had one of the best days ever. What's better than eating a ton of good food and getting paid to do a whole lot of nothing? Nothing!

-Allan

Sold out

Let me rep some random stuff.

Snakes & Suits

Get your faux indie on. Har har har.

I am spending my birthday savings on that. I am flaking on music for clothing. That's so unlike me.

At least I'll still have $100 left after this.

I've been spending a lot of time on the interbots watching youtube videos. By that I mean I've just been watching random vlogging people talk into a camera. Dare I say I am somewhat addicted? Here are the people I find amusing for absolutely no good reason:

-Nanalew

-YourAverageAdam

-thatzak

-Cohenism

That is most definitely in the order I like them. They also do a podcast, but if you even bother to click on one of those links, you'll probably find it.

More soul selling. MOAR!!! WHAT DO I KNOW ABOUT MOAR?!

-Allan

We'll do the work

500 Days of Summer is sooooooooooo good!!!!!!!! Being a super Zooey Deschanel fan, it's most definitely smart to watch one of her best movies ever 800 billion days after it's been released. Now there's no one to talk about it with. ._.

I loved that movie.

Inglourious Basterds also. That was pretty good too.

For once in my life I actually feel good about this whole college thing. I ACTUALLY HAVE AN ESSAY WRITTEN!!! WOOO!!! YEA!!! It's kinda sad how other people are actually in college already though. Also this girl who's like 100x smarter than me is also applying to Skidmore. Well, I'm sure a lot of other people at school who are 100x smarter than me are applying also, but I only know for a fact that she is. Way to totally further destroy my chances.

I wonder if I could apply for stuff in Canada?

Speaking of Canada, it is basically a proven fact that just about ANYONE can speak French better than me. It's kinda sad.

NOW FOR A NEW SEGMENT!!!

Ongoing list of cliche albums that I would like:



YEA! Psychocandy by The Jesus and Mary Chain. Shoegaze-y goodness from back in the day.

I am the Ringo Star of ________

-Allan

Analog

Contrary to popular belief, I actually do own more than just one t-shirt. Too bad I always end up getting pictures taken of me when I'm wearing my East Oakland Boxing Association shirt. Honestly. Out of the not that many pictures of me on the interbots, a good chunk of them feature me wearing that shirt. Why does this matter?!

The best thing you'll ever read

Having a bad day? Do me a favor and read that! It's so good. SOOOOO GOOOOODDDDD!!!!

Two posts in one day. I am done-ish.

-Allan

Legoland

This is what we in the cattle industry call "Finals Week". This isn't just any finals week. It is THE finals week. The finals week to end all finals week until a later, as of yet undetermined time in my life.

I am blogging very early in the morning. That can probably tell you what mindset I am in right now. Not a good or productive one. I have about two late assignments and one that is actually due by the end of today. If I somehow convince myself to stay away from friends and distractions on a day where I don't even have to be at school, I will get them done. I will be more or less caught up. It's been so long since I've known that feeling.

The crowds will roar. So, so much.

If you've been reading my blog for more than a second, you'll probably realize I swear a lot. For no good apparent reason whatsoever. So, I've convinced myself to cut down on it. Maybe.

Concluding remarks.

I'm going to have a few weeks worth of free time soon. Assuming I do force myself to follow through with the whole learning the drive thing, I might spend a lot of that time just driving around and forgetting to put gas into the car. Even then I'll still have a lot of free time. I think I will force myself to write things again. Well, "force" makes it sound un-artsy. Haha. What exactly these things are is still unclear. How seriously I take it is still unclear as well.

Hi. Ho. Hi. Ho!

-Allan

No big whoop

The fact that I have only two finals left in my entire high school career and I'm already stoked about leaving high school makes me not wanna study at all.

Hello. You have tuned into another one of these.

If I sat in front of a camera and talked about dumb shit then posted it on youtube, would anyone watch? CAN I BE FAMOUS TOO?! WILL I RECEIVE MORE HATE MAIL AND DEATH THREATS?!

That in no way implies I'm going to start doing that. Having a blog and spamming stupid shit on twitter is enough.

I may have developed this somewhat huge obsessions with Evan Rachel Wood. I haven't seen "Across The Universe" though. I just know that a handful of people I know fucking hate it. Har har har.

Oh man oh man oh man. OH MAN!

I will recover from being sick again and fight the interbot with more words and stuff.

-Allan

Bite My Tongue

People keep telling me high school will be some of the best years of my life. I'd gladly trade it all in for a puppy. Or a taco. Depending on the time of day.

If I keep at this pace, I'll learn to drive just before 2010! Just gonna drive around buying hella porn and cigarettes.

If it works out, I could probably drive to the Cold War Kids show next month. Won't have to deal with BART or making my parents pick me up at like 1 am.



Does that turn you on? Click it.

I remember when we were almost going to learn what makes us develop crushes in Neurobiology. I think we did. I can't remember. I don't know.

I'm like 90% done with that class. I'm both super stoked and super bummed. It's a fun and interesting class, but it is so fucking hard. Definitely not for the pretend smart people.

My friend wants to go out with a bunch or people for dinner next Thursday to celebrate all the December birthdays. He has his sights set on this somewhat fancy restaurant and is willing to pay for all of it. I'm not sure I wanna go. Sure, I shouldn't bitch about a free meal, but I'm only turning 18 man. I think I'd have a better time fucking around in some dirty little burger joint in the middle of nowhere. Har har har. I'm just not mature/sophisticated enough for this stuff I guess. Nonetheless, it's a very nice thing for him to do.

I is listening to that Academy Is... at this very moment. Once again, I like Santi. Leave me alone.

I hate it when people abuse the word "epic".

Why do you think Joss Whedon shows get cancelled a lot? Maybe because they really aren't that good. Maybe.

This is my new favorite thing:



-Allan

Sugar it's all right

17 (you could basically round it off to 18) years and you'd think my parents would have given up on trying to make me more normal like the other children. Nope. Mum gives me crap for almost everything. Sadly I just have to take it.

Angst. Angst. Angst.

People seemed really happy to learn that they have gotten into college. I want that feeling?

Can you believe it? I'm less then 8 days away from my final final of high school! Then I just have to finish my one AP and it's no more testing!!! At least until college (if that happens).

I really wanna go to college. Leave me alone.

I think that's how my entire life will be. Move from school to school to job. Then whatever work is, it will just be like school except way more important and for way longer. I won't want to do it for the most part, but I need it and will just feel empty and bored without it. I sound like I'm talking about drugs. Har har har.

I have gloves. They don't have fingers. So much for being practical.

Have you ever swallowed something and thought you were gonna die cause you weren't sure it was gonna make it through all the way? I have. I swallowed a whole Hershey's Kiss thing the other day. Adding insult to injury, it was one of those awesome peppermint ones which just made the whole experience all that much worse cause it was minty the whole time lodged in my throat. Probably didn't help I was laughing the whole time. I wasn't going to die.

Pussy.

There is a stamp laying next to me on this shelf thing I have. I don't know where it came from.

-Allan

A Holden Caufield

Wow...umm...okay. I don't know how well this is going to go over for you. Just hope they're not all thirsty for blood.

Rumors are stupid, but the fact that you did something really stupid in the first place just makes it worst. Where the fuck was your head?

Here's to me having no faith whatsoever in the generations that will come after me.

This is where you drink something. I guess.

I could be more vague. It's really not something that would make your life a whole lot better by knowing. Thinking about it makes me wanna throw up. Why couldn't I be like the one person who doesn't know a damn thing about it? It's not something that involves me either. It only bothers me because I thought this person was different and had way more common sense than that. I guess not.

Did you know one of the new Smashing Pumpkins songs is up somewhere on the interbot? You probably know I couldn't care less.

You can't sexy dance to punk rock.

-Allan

Mercy me

Mass texts are funny.

So is everything else.

If you've never seen the movie "Kids", it's probably worth watching.



Best part of the movie ever.

Yea, I'm running out of movies to watch so I'm just going back and re-watching things. If I really wanted to, I would actually take some of my friend's recommendations and watch all the bad foreign films he spends all his time watching. But I won't. I look down on all that is not remotely indie!!! >=O

So I went into an American Apparel once. I wanted to buy red pants. They didn't have red pants. I just ended up talking about Sasha Grey with one of the girls that worked there. True story.

"Sometimes I wonder if sex is worth all of this..."

It really isn't.

-Allan

It is done

So I somehow convinced my friends to go see New Moon with me tonight. All I can say is wow. We left maybe 4/5th's through the movie only because I was sure it might possibly get funnier. My friends gave up like 20 minutes in and were just flipping me off the whole time. Worst waste of money ever. Fuck you lady for telling me to shut up. I know I was being an asshole, but there were people next to me who were just talking the whole time and you didn't give them shit. I was only laughing....really loudly.

I want to find like an e-mail or something for the person who wrote the script. I want to talk to this person. I want to find out how he/she is able to live knowing they were the ones responsible for putting those words down on paper.

Tomorrow will be bettah! SO MUCH BETTAH!!

-Allan

Olivia

I has to write college essays ASAP. Can I just send them my blog? Haha. It'll probably tell you more about me than some BS on a few pages of paper. I can't write anymore. That's what I'm trying to say.

I keep telling myself I'll learn how to drive during the next period off from school. I WILL MAKE THAT HAPPEN FOR WINTER BREAK! YOU WILL NOT STOP ME LAZINESS! YOU PROBABLY WILL!!!

Fuck everything. FUCK NOTHING!! Pam cakes.

-Allan