Bye bye.

Hoh shit.

2008 is almost over. I didn't see that one coming.

Let me say it's been a shitty year filled with awesome things.

I've become more of a creep and a worserer person. Still working on becoming a beautiful butterfly. Hahahaha.

So yea. I don't know. What else am I gonna say?

Here, I'll re-cap 2008 for me in a single sentence:

A complete lack of sex.

There. Yes. That's all 2008 meant. =/

ONTO NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS (cause I really care about those...)!!!!

Umm...let's see. This tends to be something I'll never get around to doing so here's my New Year's Resolution (only one, sorry):

Find a girlfriend.

...

I thought that comment was funny. Fuck you.

So yea. Happy New Year fuckers. Hope 2008 fucked you real nice and never called again as well. Let's do it again in '09! THEN WATCH EVERYTHING DIE IN '12!!!!!

Now go get shitfaced.

-Allan

Blah blah blah blah

BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH?!

Blah blah!

BLAH!!!!!!!!!!!!

-Allan

These are....

Things I've learned about life via movies...

1. Everything goes to shit in the worst way possible

2. Married people have affairs left and right.

3. You're very likely to cut your own tongue out as penance because you've wronged someone.

4. That random blonde chick just ain't worth it in the long run.

Yea....

-Allan

Pallid Protocol.

Lemme let you in on my secret project of dooms....

....

Wait....I don't have one. Fuck. =/

So my weird fanboy obsession with Charlotte Gainsbourg has resurfaced again. This takes form in me watching a bunch of her movies (Bob Dylan movie included). There's this one called "Prête-moi ta main" that I like. Go watch it. Or your kid can be a drunk asshole. That's up to you really.

I'm starting to think coffee doesn't actually work on me anymore. I just hope I don't kill myself in an attempt to stay awake or something.

If I do, tell my wife I love her.

-Allan

Drive-In

I watched that Bob Dylan movie "I'm Not There".

I wasn't feeling it to tell you the truth. And Cate Blanchett probably made the best Bob Dylan in my opinion.

Bob Dylan Bob Dylan? Bob Dylan....

What else can I say that hasn't been said before? Nothing.

Sadly, the only thing on my mind recently is somehow forking up 200+ dollars so I can replace Alice. That's not like me to worry so bad about money. Fuck me.

James sounded like he wanted to lend me that amount of money when I told him about it. I wouldn't borrow it from him though. 1) Because I would have a hell of a time paying him back. 2) He's still a kid. One thing I've learned is one kid should not borrow a large sum of money from another kid. It doesn't work out.

Why the hell do you need to know any of this? Go away.

-Allan

Is that porno ever getting made?

So I leave my acoustic out of it's case all the time since I strum it every other minute (be it procrastinating or actual work) and that part is important somehow.

I put my capo on the guitar last night before I went to sleep. I usually keep it clipped to the head, but I kinda felt lazy last night so I was like "I'll just put it here and fuck it..." Then for most of the day, I kept thinking, "The capo is kinda just laying on the guitar, if I pick it up, remember to grab the capo first so it doesn't fall on the floor or some shit." I get anal about things like that. So a few seconds ago, I picked up my guitar and the capo hit the floor and I was bummed out.

Funny how life works right?

Sorry for wasting your time.

-Allan

Lo

I've watched a grip of movies during these past 11 days (I've been counting...).

I just finished watching Being John Malcovich. Good movie also. It's really weird and goes a billion different ways you totally don't see coming if you've never heard a thing about the movie.

I actually feel like shit right now though. I think I'm sick, but it doesn't quite feel like I'm actually sick. Like mentally it feels like I have flu, but physically, I think I'm fine.

LALALALALALA.

Lolita is a pretty name.

-Allan

2:17 a.m.

I just finished watching this movie called Amores Perros. It's really good too. It's got a bunch of dogs and fucked up shit and you should go watch it if you ever get a chance. You're child will be a drunk asshole if you don't. Blah blah blah.

I didn't make that sound appealing at all did I? No? Well, it stars that guy who plays Stephane in The Science of Sleep so that's reason enough to go see it.

-Allan

Anything expected of you now?

Lars and the Real Girl was a good movie.

A very good movie. I really like it. It turned out to a lot less funny than I had initially imagined it. It was actually a pretty serious movie. Why the hell did I think it was a comedy?

I kinda wanna watch Eternal Sunshine again for the billionth time. I don't know. I kinda just do for some reason.

-Allan

This is like an afterschool special

I was forced to wake up at 9:30 a.m this morning. Okay. So normally I wouldn't have trouble with that, but I didn't sleep much last night so I was grumpy. I mean, I went to sleep at like 9 p.m last night. Woke up at 3 a.m. Couldn't sleep again til at least 5 in the morning.

I. am. about. to. watch. Lars. and. the. Real. Girl. stop.

I feel very tired, but really don't wanna go back to sleep because I have to get working soon and I gotta enjoy the most of my last day of actually not having to do anything without feeling bad about procrastination.

-Allan

Big Brother Is Watching

Kiss Kiss Bang Bang = My new favorite movie

Vicky Cristina Barcelona = Movie NOT worth watching just to stare at Scarlett Johansson. Unless you have a vagina or enjoy movies like that.

But yea. Movies keep me sedated and not thinking.

-Allan

No hardcore dancing in the living room please.

Let me just say this.

Her name is everywhere. Fucking EVERYWHERE. No lie.

So I'm just either fucking losing it or I'm just fucking losing it.

I hate being me. Wanna trade sometime?

-Allan

Post 101.

So I just remembered...

I had this dream last night where the school moved my locker to this dinky little drawer at the far end of the MEW hallway and I couldn't fit shit into it. Is that just my sub-conscious idea of how much the school doesn't give a shit about me (and they've no reason to) manifesting itself? Does that sentence make sense?

I'm staying up tonight. To watch the picture movies, write, and maybe get some drunk IM's. Fun.

-Allan

This can be the start of something disastrously beautiful?

So I added my blog to this website....

http://alphainventions.com/

So now either a bunch of creeps will be reading about my life.....or just the usual amount of fools will read.

I don't know why did that. Maybe so my shameless promotion of random crap will actually have an audience?

More likely because I need the attention. Hahaha.

So yea. Fun fun fun.

-Allan

wallflower. wallpaper.

To tell you the truth.

I hate writing songs.

But something compels me to do it.

Fucking shit is right.

-Allan

My daily routine as of Dec 19th...

1. Wake up at about the same time.

2. Turn the ol' laptop on before rushing to make coffee.

3. Brushing my teeth and pissing.

4. Drink coffee.

5. Watch 1-3 movies.

6. Making noise.

7. Porn.

8. More noise.

9. Another movie?

10. Food...

11. More noise.

12. Possibly more porn.

13. More noise.

14. Crying myself to sleep.

So in other words....I'm fucking bored out of my goddamn mind.

Coffee and Cigarettes is a good movie. I really like it.

I've got work to do. I'll start on it eventually.

I've got conflicting thoughts in my head. They annoy the shit out of me.

I've got the motives but no transportation.

-Allan

It is sunstroke!

Did you get everything you want and then some? :D

This excludes you, Diana, because you apparently want everything.

Haha.

So anyone who wants to throw $230 my way, you're welcome to do so.

Fuck.

So uhh. The year's almost over. Wait. Nevermind. They closed the bet so you can't enter anyways. But you should still listen to Break This City. Episode 34 is up and ready to whisper sweet things into your ears. And there's tons of robot sex. Not quite enough robot sex, but enough to keep you listening. :D

Also, there's a Blast Bandit's show tonight at 8pm (I think) at Hero's in Modesto. So if you wanna be an ass and make me hella jealous, go see those fools. Go hang out with Adam and AJ and get raped by them.

So I personally don't think the Sex Pistols can "sell out". Isn't punk about rebellion and doing what people don't want you to do? So by "selling out", they've become the most punk things to walk this earth. Too bad though. No Sidney, I'm not down.

Have you ever seen Sid and Nancy? It's a good movie (even though most things are inaccurate and piss Johnny Rotten off...) and worth a watch.

-Allan

HOLY FUCK!!!!

1) Merry Christmas fuckers. :D

2)

3) I saw this really, really nice Epiphone Sheraton on Craig's List. It's one of the REALLY old ones made in the 80's (before Epiphone started making shit guitars). The guy's selling it for $650 and it looks great. Plus, it's in the discontinued tobacco burst color which I actually want more than a black one. Sadly, I only have about $420. =/ My parents are not about to spot me another $230 either.

-Allan

Sorry if I'm not suppose to do this....

:D

-Allan

Your kid's a drunk asshole!

I really wanna finish "Charlotte" really bad. I really like it. Haha. I sing it in my head sometimes. But there's not enough to sing (just a chorus...). And I'm just too lazy (which I play off as "unmotivated") to write.

Fucksicles.

There's this movie called Sex and Breakfast. I was like "OH EM GEE! Eliza Dushku is in this movie?! ICANHAZWATCHZITZ!" Eliza Dushku could not save that movie. Not at all. It was pretty bad. There was WAY more breakfast than sex. And the whole thing was just really stupid. It was about these two couples who were turning "boring" so they decide to try this "group sex therapy" bullshit. Sounds like a good idea, but executed horribly. =/

So I've been listening to a lot of instrumental shit lately. I don't know why. For the longest time I've just avoided instrumental shit. But it ain't bad. Tera Melos will rip your face off in the best of ways.

I play the indie kid. I'm at that point in life. But I honestly don't think I'm the indie kid who listens to a bunch of bands you've never heard of and barely exist because those bands mostly suck and there's a reason no one's heard of them. I'm not into that.

"Yes you are! FUCKING WANNABE INDIE FUCK!"

WELL YOU'RE MOMMA! YOU'RE MOMMA!!!!!!!!!!!!

-Allan

I feel like shit.

And my voice is shot.

Why?

Because of rip-off SPAM. Never eating that shit again. It just made me feel like shit and I had a hell of a time trying to sleep.

Poop.

There's a show in Modesto on Friday I kinda wanna go to. It's the Blast Bandits reunion show/benefit show for the drummer of Luckie Strike who has some sort of cancer and needs money to pay her medical bills. But yea, Modesto is like over an hour away and I don't think my parents want to drive that far just so they can be bored for x amount of hours. So I don't know.

I have a feeling everything's gonna fall apart soon. I don't know why, but most of the people around me (that actually matter) feel like they've just given up and are begging for something unfortunate to happen. That doesn't need to happen. So why isn't anyone making an effort to correct this? Hell, why isn't anyone making an effort to just hold their own weight instead of piling more shit on? You really can't expect anything out of me when I have to watch you slowly destroy yourself.

I've been watching a lot of movies lately. Mostly because I'm bored beyond my fucking mind. Don't think my hard drive likes it though. And all the waiting for shit to download. Guess we can't have everything. =/

-Allan

Dead in the water

I'm happy for you baby, but I don't wanna know.

Nope.

I think I'll stay up tonight. If only because I'm downing cups of coffee at 8pm.

I love how little I post (which is still a lot compared to normal people) when I have absolutely NOTHING to do. Fuck.

I hate the internet. Especially after being exposed to Chris Walters and having a whole lot of free time on your hands. I feel dirty! =/

Not at all.

Uhh...

-Allan

Bananananana

I'm bored.

What else am I gonna do besides watch random movies, sing, and jerk off all day?

I actually do most of the former two all day. Haha. I'm driving my parents crazy.

Yea.

-Allan

AC/DShe?

Yea....

Nope, nothing awesome happened yet. Should stop saying shit like that.

But yea.

I lose faith in the people I hang out with more and more everyday. Apparently kids like to do this thing where everyone ditches everyone to hang out with everyone else. Really? Fuck. Don't ask people those people you're gonna ditch to go hang out then. That's just a waste of people's time and fucking stupid. If you don't wanna hang out with me (though I'm not talking myself since no one asks me to go anywhere anymore), don't fucking make me leave my house so you can run off and hang with the "cool" folks.

Maybe I don't even know what I'm talking about.

Haha. I get so angry at people sometimes. Stop wearing people fucker. Go die.

So yea. I need more flannels.

-Allan

Hello Vagina

I really, really like Margot And The Nuclear So & So's. Just because.

Something awesome will happen in a couple of minutes/hours unless I give up. Stay posted.

-Allan

Not until I'm famous

Should today matter.

Not at all.

-Allan

Love, Life, and Eddie Murphy

I "found" two pretty awesome bands today.

First one being This City Needs Guns. The other is Margot & the Nuclear So and So's. Neither bands any of you reading might enjoy.

And how did I find these bands?

A certain podcast you'll hopefully find here:

http://web.me.com/abbietoeknee/The_Long_Tail/The_Long_Tail/The_Long_Tail.html

It's Abbie's podcast. Who's Abbie? I don't know. She listens to BTC also and that's the only reason why I found out about her podcast. If you like the bands I mentioned above, then this podcast is the podcast for you since she throws out a bunch of bands similar to those two.

So yea....I like to plug things randomly. Give me a cookie.

My ability to play guitar (for lack of a better description) is somewhat bipolar. One day, I can manage to keep up with The Fall of Troy songs, other days, I can't even play Ramones tunes (no offense Ramones). Today is the latter. I don't know. Fuck me.

I've doing a bunch of half-assed "adjustments" to Alice so now it sounds like shit. I don't care anymore. I'm just gonna brave it out until I can afford a better guitar.

Okay. If I'm lucky, Sid and Nancy will download by tonight and I can watch it.

-Allan

BA meetings.

So it's over for now. I don't have to worry about it until the report card comes. I miss those days when I didn't have to worry.

I went an entire day without a post. That's not really significant, but I just wanna to point it out.

I finally got to see Pineapple Express. It was good. It was such a stoner film, but whatever.

Then I watched this movie called Layer Cake. It has James Bond in it before he became James Bond. What's his name? Daniel Craig or some shit? It's a good movie and you should go watch it. Even if only to see James Bond when he was not quite James Bond....

And that might just be my entire break. Watching movies that take up WAY too much space on my hard drive. I need a flash drive with enough room to hold all this shit....now!

Poop.

I don't wanna call it writer's block. More like "I don't know what the fuck to say at all".

Herman needs to get his shit together and buy Umbrella Chronicles so I have something to do over the break. Haha. :D

-Allan

First day of work at the microscope shop

Dear "Punk",

Stop "going" other genres. No one cares.

=/

And by "no one", I mean me.

I watched a movie about some old 30 something Chinese guy falling for a 16 year old (A.K.A Hayden Panettiere from like Heroes). It was cheesy and made me feel bad about my life. Not that I'm a crazy 30 something year old Chinese guy falling for a 16 year old, but something like it.

....

You totally got a random boner (yes, you there without a penis) and you don't know why.

So one more final. Yea. Then sweet, sweet solitude.

-Allan

IT'S A KEYCHAIN!!!!

Yes.

So, if you're a fucking indie kid, you'll probably orgasm slightly by the end of this post. Solidarity Recordings released their holiday compilation thing. It's filled with stuff from a lot of awesome local bands (and no, they aren't Christmas themed....minus the Hot Toddies' cover of "Santa Baby"). 30 songs worth to be exact. So yea, I urge you to go download it. It's fucking legal. :D

Here's the link:

http://digital.deadformat.net/

The code is: jinglebells (who would've thought?)

Go get one of those disposable e-mails if you're scared to use your own.

Download it. Love it. Let it ruin your studying! :D

-Allan

So Kurt runs into Sid and Jeff one day...

And it was awesome...

I just spent like 3 hours cramming information onto that review sheet for History. I don't know if it'll help me at all, but at least making it helped me remember things. Now I just need to study it a bit. And then it's off to Bio. FUCK YOU BIO (sorry Mr. Vann).

Goddamn.

I feel oddly happy right now. Not that I wasn't before. But yea.

Just keep watching porn, keep watching porn.

-Allan

READ A BOOK, READ A BOOK, READ A MOTHERFUCKIN' BOOK!

Which I'm close to doing.

Fuck.

I keep writing these, then closing the browser cause I'm thinking "This doesn't fucking matter and doesn't need to be said." So yea, I've saved you the trouble of having to read five extra posts in the last (insert number) hours.

AIM is not good for studying. I feel like I've said this...

It's a compulsion.

It says 4:45. Hopefully I do something useful before it says !#;$#.

No, that does not actually correspond with any of the actual numbers on the keyboard contrary to popular belief.

Blah blah blah.

I want tomorrow to be over already. It's not gonna be pretty.

I'm a failure, but a damn good one.

2 down. Kinda got raped by both of em. I'm not worried though. Tomorrow will be WAY worse.

......

I hate being called out for being anti-social. Just cause I can't stand certain people who hang out all the fucking time with people I can stand, doesn't mean I'm anti-social. Just don't wanna have to listen to all that bullshit for an extended period of time. Even if it means not hanging out with my "friends" in the process. That's all.

Yea, fuck me. I'm selfish.

And I'm too broke ass to go anywhere (kinda). I can has almost enough money for something shiny.

Okay. I ballsack you too. Goodnight.

-Allan

Thinking is only fun in moderation.

I don't wanna take finals.

I just wanna sleep and play guitar really...

Fuck.

I've been kinda studying since I'm forced to come in contact with French while writing my story. I don't know. I'm only really worried about Wednesday because those are two of my not so good subjects crammed into the same 4-5 hour period.

And I've absolutely nothing to pick me up at the end of the week. Thanks for canceling that show DESA. Brett loses a cool point if it's his fault again. :D

Oh man...

I need to stop telling myself to not drink coffee in the morning. It's just not smart. It's not like I'm trying to quit. Not at all.

Fuck you. Fuck you. You're cool. Fuck you. Okay, I'm out.

-Allan

What's that noise?!

That's the sound of finals raping you...

I hear some unsettling things every day that I kinda don't need to know. I don't know how serious to person was when they said it, but yea...that's kinda not awesome at all.

It's enough to be mesmerized.

-Allan

Lola

Dear, dear Lola.

Why you so good to me?

What the fuck am I talking about?

What's better than studying?

Being stared down by (one) AJ and (one) Chris Walters via webcam. I was giggling like a tard the whole time, of course.

I have not made much of an effort in studying. Fuck it. Doing it over the weekend actually would just not help me at all since I'll forget it all. I'll just do what I usually do and cram the night before.

Yea.

It's actually really fucking cold. I like it. Especially not being able to feel my hands or feet for most of the day.

I call it temporarily "Charlotte". I don't like anything about it minus the chorus which I think is pretty passable for something decent. It's hard to write songs about people you don't really know shit about. Even though it isn't 100% about her. Maybe 60%. Maybe. Enough to make it hard to write. Easier compared to other things, but still hard. Get more confusing sir. I will. I will get as confusing as I want. My main inspiration right now is The Honorary Title. Yea. I'm not even writing it for her to tell you the truth.

I think my crush is over. Good.

Haha. See man. I don't really have many secrets.

But yea. I'm done. Don't drag me back in.

-Allan

Bum bum bum...

No sir. I am straight-edge. Very straight-edge.

No vodka or 7-Up for anyone.

None of the titles necessarily make sense or have anything to do with the post. You can tell if they do. That one did not.

Time to make more coffee and a History study guide. WEEE!

-Allan

I think I'm losing it for real...

I keep having these fits where a billion ideas come at me at once and something keeps telling me that there is absolutely nothing stopping me from doing any of those things. I'm scared I'll actually give in and it just won't end well for me.

So I'm either going crazy or all the caffeine is fucking me over. Hard.

It's really uncomfortable.

God damn that smells good.

I'm gonna get around to studying. I promise, shit.

What else have I promised? I don't know.

Fuck this I quit.

-Allan

Vodka and 7-Up

HI MATTHEW!

Now that you're probably reading this, I feel all self-conscious and embarrassed.

Not really.

But at least you'll get to see how much of a creep I REALLY am and read all the creepy comments I don't get.

Haha.

It's been 26 minutes since I've written a word.

These things take anywhere from 3 seconds to 6 hours to write. Fun.

-Allan

Semi-Fiction

Guitar is a lot easier...

After watching Thomas Erak play and thinking "Psh, I can fucking do that...eventually."

So no, I can't play like him yet. But I'm getting betterer. And betterer. And my grades just go bye bye.

Argh.

ARGH!!!!!

Okay.

-Allan

I'm a fucking git...

I wrote a really long post before this.

Something about the Sex Pistols and Johnny Rotten and how awesome it all was.

Then I thought, you don't fucking care.

Yea. I keep the reader(s) in mind. I'm just that nice of a person.

But the world doesn't allow me to be that person all the time.

What? Who fucking knows?

So....finals are coming up. Time to complain about it in my facebook status a hundred times. Or not...Whatever. The only class I'm kinda failing is English. I'm not worried. I'll actually study and hopefully won't do that bad. I'm only stressed when I wanna fit in and there's really nothing to fit into so fuck stress.

Cats in heat.

AGHGHAHGHGHAHHAGHHAGHGHGHAHGHGHAHGHGHGAHGHGHAGHADFOASHDISAODNIASNDIWNDOIDASN.

I bet you read through that thinking I hid some message in it didn't you? :D

Now you're like "Psh, no I didn't" when you really did.

And now you're pulling your pants down because I don't know.

This is where I leave.

-Allan

I'm good at making things worse.

Awesome.

Don't know how many times I can say "I HATE LIFE" before I get bored and move on.

All you give me is dirty looks. Better than nothing I guess...

"Creep."

Vagina.

Community service? What's that?

Just a random thought.

Next week is gonna be awesome. I'm gonna go and take all my finals then die. Then go see DESA and completely forget everything I've learned first semester. Sounds great.

Actually, I just went on the DESA myspace and that show is gone? What the fuck? NOOO! Fuck.

Now I really hate life.

-Allan

AHAHAHAHAHA!

Fuck you!

I'm done I guess. I don't fucking care anymore. I'm very tired and confused and sad and angry so I'm gonna go the fuck to sleep!

T^T

And no one will rub my back or jerk me off for free.

-Allan

You don't really have a band...

FUCK! FUCK! ASS! FUCK!!! FUCK!!!!!!! FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! O_O

ARGH! This French thing is actually killing me. I spend more time going through the English-French dictionary than writing. And I actually don't have an idea that works so who fucking knows?

And Billy Corgan is a huge asshole. Let the Smashing Pumpkins die already jackass.

-Allan

1 vagina.

The last day of this week is gonna be horrible....


I REALLY don't wanna fucking write this French thingy.

I lose interest in you! Or so I'll tell the internet.

Speaking of internet.

1 Guy, 1 Cup. Actually not that bad. It kinda gets boring after a minute. :D

Thanks AJ...

-Allan

My naps are self-concious

They need help.

I've been having a hard time typing lately. I've been getting words mixed up with one another and sometimes just leaving words out of sentences completely. I'm actually gonna blame it one me just being so fuck off tired lately.

I actually downloaded the Mickey Avalon album. Yea....not so interesting. But hey, at least he isn't as fucked up as he used to be so whatever. More power to him.

There's absolutely nothing stopping me from picking up my guitar and throwing the rest of the night away. T_T

I don't wanna do French anymore.

-Allan

We call it a coloring contest...

Sometimes I feel sorry for chocolate bars.

I tear through them too fast. We don't get enough time to know each other before I devour it.

Is that weird? Fuck no.

Once again. TOO MUCH FUCKING FRENCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Argh.

Okay. I need to sleep more. Just gotta hang in there for at least one more week.

-Allan

Casper Banjo

I don't think I'll mentally survive this week.

Not at all.

TOO MUCH FRENCH!!!!! RAWR!!!!!!!

-Allan

I wrote you a song that I like. You win. You only.

:D

Last post for today. I swear.

Let me comment on life (cause I usually don't right?).

It has transformed into a butterfly that farts and jerks off to disgusting pornography...

No, I keed. That's Monster Fuck Parade.

Umm...I don't know. It kinda sucks right now. I've just a bunch of conflicting ideas and not making much of an effort in sorting shit out. And finals are fucking next week. And my PSAT score sucks. I need to improve by at least 200 more points. And everything is school related?! FUCK!!!!!

Man. I feel sorry for my parents. They're blowing all this money so I can get an education I'll probably never put to good use. Even knowing that, I'm not changing a thing. That's how much of an asshole I am.

I don't care about anyone. I don't really care about anything. Shit happens, big deal right? Now apply that kind of thinking to everything and you'll know what goes through my head.

God fucking damn it. I'm actually getting angry now. FUCK. I blame the internet.

I should just take up drinking and drugs while I'm at it. Then I'd actually have a fucking excuse to be this fucking pathetic.

I'm joking of course. I don't think anything in life would ever drive me to do that. Probably not even with a gun to my head.

So yea, if I continue, it's just gonna spiral into stupid non-sense.

-Allan

Rent should be for free for being me

I post way too fucking much.

Are there AA meetings for bloggers?

Fuck....

I should use twitter more often since none of these posts really need to be more than 140 words long.

I'm not liking French. It's about the one class that I am absolutely, 100% not trying at all in and it really isn't even that hard since Madame is very nice with grading. Man. I can never do well in school for two long. I see that my grades aren't all too bad and I let it go to shit. Fuck me.

And fuck the guy who made facebook.

Well, not really.

-Allan

I haz coffee.can

So I guess I'm feeling better.

Meow.

Okay. I'll stop being cheesy now. I'll keep it all to myself until it manifests into something ugly and I become a serial rapist.

:D

-Allan

555-9676

I'm not liking life right now.

Maybe cause I haven't had coffee in like 2 days.

I really need to be less nonchalant about life. It's getting kinda out of hand.

I want coffee. Yes.

A kind offer sir. But no thank you. Not at all. I don't really wanna bother figuring out who you are, but no thank you. I'm not that fucking desperate.

Stop leaving creepy comments. Or at least attach a name to your creepy comments? Or just do the former.

Yea.

Vaginoose. I made that one up. I'm using it.

I still like my song. :D It's been at least an entire day. I'm not gonna be able to work on it til at least a whole week or so from now (FINALS!!!!!!!). Then I'll have all the time in the world. Plus, I only need to change some words up so it makes more sense cause it doesn't right now. And then after that! I'll move onto not writing creepy shit about girls.

Were all creepy.

GO make this drink:

"Bitch on Wheels"

Diet coke
Bacardi
Rockstar

You have the Hot Toddies to thank for that.

Speaking of which.

EPISODE 32 OF BREAK THIS CITY IS OUT!!!!!!!!!!! Use those links to your left. GO LISTEN TO THEM! GO! The Hot Toddies are the guest this week. They somewhat neutralize the sausage fest known as BTC. :D And they're awesome so you should listen. BREAK THIS CITY! BRINGING YOU MORE VAGINA WITH EACH PASSING EPISODE!

-Allan

It's so warm

Man, I'm fucking tearing through these posts. If only I worked as much as I waste time writing these.

Appreciate them.

Episode 32 of Break This City will be up soon (or so a certain AJ says). And I've also lost the ability to eat cake and meatloaf for at least another 5 hours. Thanks Walters.

Those videos weren't so bad. Not compared to some of the other shit I've forced myself to google.

Oh internet. You're like a whore with AIDS that we can't help but fuck without protection.

Yea, I'm not good with those analogy things.

You liked it though.

Oh man.

I hate presents. Cause I don't really want anything. I only say this cause I walked in on my dad ordering my Christmas present online. I appreciate him getting me something like that, but I really don't need it. I really don't want it. I rather he keep his money. Fuck.

Plus, you can't really buy a teenage girl now can you? :D

-Allan

Lend me your absent ears...

This isn't working out.

Can't live the rest of my life like this.

No. Not at all. No.

-Allan

I'm make sure you never play in Humboldt County ever again!

What?

No.

Today went by horribly nice.

That sentence made sense.

Oh man.

So many tests this week. T^T

"Hey, let's cram all the tests we can into the week before finals!"

"YEA!!!!!!!!"

I've got one everyday of the week save for today.

This isn't gonna help me with finals at all. I'm just gonna dump all this knowledge on the test then forget during the finals. BLEH!!!!

But I'm not worrying. Maybe I am. I don't know.

The back of my head is pulsing! IT FEELS WEIRD! WHAT THE HELL?!

AHHHHHH!!!!!

-Allan

I'm fiendin'

I don't really like Monday mornings.

Especially this one. Cause I've a bunch of tests tomorrow. And I'm only semi-prepared for one of them (which luckily is Bio since my test grade isn't so hot in that class).

Next Monday will be worse. I guess. But fuck it. I won't stress about finals because I really don't care enough to stress about them. Stress is pointless and unnecessary.

Vump vump vump vump.

I can't remember how I sing my own shit. Which isn't good since it keeps changing and ends up with me hating it. =/ I have nothing to record it down with. That and I don't wanna hear myself since I sound like shit. :D

Okay. Two emoticons. I've filled my quota.

-Allan

There are tests that tell you if you're in love or not...

And others that tell you when you'll die.

So what's the point of living life?

Who knows?

Maybe just to chase kittens and bunnies and squirrels all day.

You know that feeling you get when you make something and then you really want to show it to someone? Then you kinda feel scared to because it's real fucking personal. But you still really wanna share it. Yea. :D

-Allan

The only thing it means is you're old enough to strip

Drum roll please!

*drumroll*

Instead of doing homework or well...homework, I sat down with the acoustic and actually wrote a song with a part that I really like. Everything is kinda bleh. I'll probably put it up for you to laugh at in a few more posts. And if you somehow catch me off guard and hand me a guitar, I'll probably play it for you.

I know I've said the above a billion times, but I'm more than 90% sure I've got something this time.

"Well then jackass, what's it about?"

What do you think sir? What do you fucking think?

-Allan

The city has sex with everyone, I suppose.

Oh man.

That song "First Day of My Life" was good. I still like it. Kinda. I try hard not to let people ruin that song by them playing it EVERY FUCKING TIME I SEE THEM WITH AN ACOUSTIC GUITAR IN HAND. They've almost got me man.

And I really am in no position to criticize those folks since I do about the same thing. I'm just not looking for attention.

Oh man.

Let's just fucking hate on people throughout this post.

I'm joking.

I try to advocate not talking about people behind their backs, but were all hypocrites. But I try. I really do.

Where am I going with dees?

I don't know.

I actually have work to do.

Goodnight.

-Allan

On my way to the Red Queen

If only I can stop thinking in future tense.

There are coffee stains on like all my keys on this keyboard. Coffee stains kids. Nothing else (you pervs).

I need coffee. This suck vaginoose.

-Allan

Out of the shit hole, into the rabbit one...

WOOOOOO!!!

I feel fucking relieved as hell. I'm gonna get an "F------" on it anyways at this point, but having it done feels so nice.

But more conflict!

There's a DESA show on the 16th of January. Apparently, there's a Hard Girls shows on the same night back at Nickel City. WHAT SHOULD I DO?! o,o I really want the new Hard Girls split CD that's coming out and I really wanna see em live. But I hella like DESA more! And both shows are about the same distance away....kinda.... DESA's in Stockton. Hard Girls will be in San Jose.

I may go to the latter just because I've seen DESA a few times now (and about to be another time on the 19th). Maybe. Let's see how shows at Nickel Arcade feel first.

-Allan

Keep on telling me that time is no enemy

I <3 Jarrod Gorbel.

In that weird man-crush kind of way.

Yesh.

Progress is good. I'm almost out of the shit hole. Minus the fact that I will more than like have to engage in an awkward conversation and explain why I decided to delay my work a good two or so weeks on Monday, I'm almost out of the shit hole! WOOOOOOO!!!!!!

Now if I can stop thinking about (insert name I've dropped a few posts back), I'll be better.

Period.

-Allan

Pity and Fear

Making progress is fun.

I guess. Fuck.

I sometimes wish I didn't have so much time on my hands to formulate all these stupid ideas that flow around in my head. I can never preoccupy myself fully with anything I wanna do to waste my time though since there's this thing called school and those things get in the way of school.

That made sense.

There are a fuck load of tests this coming week. I think. I don't know. I'll worry about that tomorrow.

-Allan

Party with Tina

Or don't party with her.

Drugs are bad. Don't do em kids.

I've told myself to start working in about another hour and a half. Only time will tell what's gonna happen.

I'll probably end up taking another nap/just fucking going to sleep. I have not had coffee today so I'm not all that capable of staying up.

-Allan

New song's singing what the old song's thinking

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-Allan

FUCK! WHAT'S THAT?!

It's probably a bunch of people having sex.

I don't know.

Do you?

I've got tons of work today. Probably not gonna do any of it. Yay me.

-Allan

She's working hard for the money tonight.

Okay.

Sometimes being around people who somewhat enjoy your presence is fun. I guess.

The guy from the Arma Mirage randomly added me on facebook. Okay. Cool. Whatever.

I know this is a stupid thought, but I can't wait for everything to end sometimes. And by everything, I mean fucking everything. And not like killing yourself. Just like when you reach that point in life where you're meant to go bye bye. I wonder what that feels like sometimes. Are you relieved or is it just even more suckierer?

So. I find that I tend to just stare at people a lot randomly. Like I just look at em and start taking em apart bit by bit and making up random shit about them. Is that weird? Maybe. And not really people in general either. Just mostly girls. That makes me a creep I believe. WOOOO!!!!!!!!

If I were to start a band, I believe it would most definitely be called Half-Ocelot. Just because. You know?

Good day sir. Good fucking day sir.

-Allan

Matt Skiba is a funny name....Sorry Matt Skiba....

Okay, I don't hate life. I hate myself.

But not that way.

Yea!!

I'm not gonna explain anything because this just isn't anyone else's business. It's nothing big either. Not some big secret or some shit. Just something I forgot to do and it's biting me in the ass.

That just makes you more curious.

SCHOOL!!!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!

-Allan

I've never been so relieved and fucked over at the same time.

I've been called out. Now I don't have to worry about being called out as much. But I have to sort it out somehow. I hate life.

-Allan

Who doesn't have a fucking facebook?!

Like actually. What the hell man? I can find just about anyone on facebook.

And I think it's funny "friending" a person who's in a fairly popular and awesome local band on facebook (*cough* DESA *cough*). You see all the folks from all the other awesome local bands in their friend list and it's just awesome (somehow).

And I don't even like facebook all that much. I don't wanna fucking poke you or take stupid quizzes or compare our goddamn tastes in movies and bullshit. I don't care for your stupid lost cellphone groups either. But I still have one.....

So maybe it will take over the world. As long as people remain curious.

Why the hell am I talking about facebook? Back alley sex FTW.

.....

Okay. I need some info. You will drop some knowledge. So anyone new reading this? Like folks that I don't know are already reading? Wanna leave me a shitload of comments about viagra pills and donkey porn and drop your name in the process. Thanks.

And that's only for folks I don't know are reading. The rest of you. Go. Go find me a sandwich.

-Allan

Streetsigns and Sidewalks

And everything in between.

Focus is needed in this life of mine. Stop being distracted by things that really don't matter at all yet.

These timely discussions don't accomplish anything.

Listening to Remember Maine brings back funny memories. I don't care what anyone else says, I kinda like it. Horribly written super emo songs. Who doesn't love that?

Vaginoose. Watch out for that band. We'll blow your mind....

(not really)

-Allan

This is what string metal sounds like

SCREWREROEREOERERRERERDUNDUNDUNDUNDUNDUNDBOOMWEROAWRRERE!!!!!!!

Not really. It's much more pleasant than that.

I'll strike tomorrow. Then fail and have an entire weekend (oh my) to feel sorry for myself. :D

-Allan

Tell me again that part about how you didn't feel a thing

So when I take breaks from playing guitar (even if it's a day or two), playing again totally just shred the tips of my fingers up.

That and I haven't changed strings in ages and these strings are looking real nasty.

You're so temperamental darling.

This week has been horrible. Just gonna fucking put that out there. I'm scared as hell every time I get an e-mail (for reasons I will not explain to you) and I feel just fucking more tired than usual. It's only fucking Wednesday too.

FUCK! FUCK! FUCK SOME MORE!!!!!!!!

-Allan

Restless Leg Syndrome

Are you reading?

Did you read it?

Is it read?

Vaginas.

What is the plural of "vagina"? I typed "vaginas" and it gives me a red line thingy. Okay, I just clicked the spell check and it says "vaginae". That's not exciting. Fuck you English.

And you always just learn something reading this don't you? Awesome.

-Allan

Half-Ocelot

You're one person. You can't speak for everyone.

And I should stop the random name dropping. Leads to really hilarious but awkward conversations.

I listen to a lot of indie bands from New York.

And lemme say this now. I don't know if it'll be canceled. I really hope not.

DESA SHOW ON THE 19th!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEA! Where?! Nickel City Arcade in San Jose! You know, that really awesome nickel arcade that dorks like me totally enjoy! Apparently bands play there. I've never noticed that. They'll be playing once again with Judgement Day and possibly MC Lars. I don't know. All the bands give different line-ups on their myspaces so I don't know. Go see em! Play old video games! Cry at all the "new" games that don't work! Smell the smelly hormonal teenagers! YEA!

Yea, I actually will go to as many DESA shows as I can. I just like em that much. And maybe those fuckers will bust out a few more old songs one of these times cause I wasn't that into them when they played older songs. Wish I was. They're definitely something I'll still listen to when I'm old and creepy.

"BUT WAIT! You're already old and creepy!"

Fuck, fuck, fuck!

I have to go to school and fail some more. WEEEE!!!!

-Allan

Chinese Guy in a Chip Shop

So...

In between leaving stupid hit comments on various myspace/facebooks/blogs/gimmeyoursoulforapicturecomment websites, I post blog posts.

Bad blog posts.

That people read.

Then laugh and think "At least I'm not THAT guy!! AHAHAHA!"

Glad to help fuckers.

-Allan

I want one too!!!!

This will be a random post.

As if all the other ones weren't...?

So it seems to me that to go-to semi-hollow body guitar for indie band folks is the Epiphone Sheraton II. Alright. Cool.

I still fucking want one even if it's biting off of all those indie folks' steeze.

And if Epiphone wants to stick a Bigsby on there, I'll love them forever.

-Allan

"HE THINKS YOUR LAST NAME IS FUNNY!!!!"

And that's all I could think to say to her. Fuck me.

I'm really, really, really, really, really, really tired. I don't even know why. I can't take a fucking nap though. I can has a lot of work to do. FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So I downloaded some shit by this awesome, awesome band called Brilliant Red Lights this morning (more on that later). They have A LOT of free music so go check that shit out. Anyways, I upload all that crap onto my iPod right? Then I listen to it right? And I listen to this while I'm in photo class right? And what do I find out? It's so fucking loud and my volume was not up anywhere near high. I'm like "WHAT THE FUCK?! SOOOO LOUD!!!!" Well, I get home to find that some of the song files have been altered slightly cause you can up the default volume on songs on iTunes if they happen to be too quite in their original state (which none of the BRL songs were...). I fixed it so maybe my ears won't be fucking bleeding this time....

And...

EPISODE 31 OF BREAK THIS CITY IS OUT! Go check that shit out! I'm actually on the episode artwork. It's kinda creepy... Brilliant Red Lights are the guest this week. It's a good episode. It's probably a gooder episode than that other episode. YEA! There's a link on the right of this page. Click on it and subscribe to that shit if you already haven't.

Goodnight.

-Allan

It must be fucking December...

Everything is moving so fast.

It sure as hell doesn't feel like it, but another year is about to go away. I won't reminisce yet.

I just got back from SFO and I'm fairly cranky because that just took a huge chunk of time out of my night and now I don't really wanna work anymore. Plus, I've only got the French homework left and that's never been a problem.

Since you've been such a good audience, I'll play one more song! :D

Charlotte. I'll tell you that much. See my problem now?

Goodnight.

-Allan

What beats a bear?

I don't know.

My grandma comes home today. Fuck....

I was just getting used to the calm and quiet. Oh well. Just a year and a half or so and I'll hopefully be away from this.

"Oh what an asshole."

Yea, I know right?

Lemme plug some random bands I've grown all warm and fuzzy to.

#1: Tera Melos. If you don't like instrumental stuff, this really isn't for you. If you like crazy guitars and bass and drums and awesomeness, go marry this band. It's pretty damn experimental (for lack of a better description) and shiny. I suck at plugging bands.

Another would be Switchblade Riot (what happened to the numbering?). Good old fashioned punk rock....except in modern times. Surprising, I know. Fuck any of the "punk" bands out there. They're the real deal. I've been forcing you to vote for them for the past month so they can be the "Band of the Month" or whatever so you should probably go see what all the hype is about.

And it didn't look so good for them last night. Either Dame Satan or some stupid band called Pegataur are gonna win. Both crap hipster bands that kids who shop at American Apparel and hang out in their hipster cafes would love.

Let's get more offensive!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOO!!!!!!!

I'm very tired. I don't think it's from a lack of sleep. Some folks have told me I look like I haven't slept much but, I do sleep enough so I don't know. This thoughts not going anywhere interesting.

Goodnight.

-Allan