When there's something you really want, but can't bring yourself around to get, it's always in your face taunting you and randomly calling your name in hallways.
I cannot enjoy my creations. Thus, I must do things with other people in mind. And by "things", I mean everything. The good. The bad. The mildly suggestive. Is this me trying to validate to myself that I'm a kind, generous person? No. But you should think of it that way.
I've been "singing" a lot of Anthony Green songs lately. I've been "singing" a lot more than I've been "working" lately. Guess what? I've got a ton of shit due in the period of one week and none of them are past 10% done. I just absolutely love how fucking stupid I am.
So yea, this is my self-loathing post. Only because I've been thinking about how much of an asshole I am to people. And to be honest, I really believe 80% of that asshole-ness comes from my lack of wanting to be social in any shape or form. I try to be nicer which basically means I just have to shut up and not talk. Sadly, I've established the loud, obnoxious asshole role for myself and it's hard to break away from that. And if I don't talk, people think I'm like really fucked up and about to kill myself or some shit since I'm one of those.
-Allan
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
This is the soundtrack of our restless lives.
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